I'm a chronic masturbator I don't know how i get myself into dis poo. This year has been a worst year in my life and I can't control d way I mastubate. I don't know if it is due to depression and loneliness.
This year I made a promise not to visit the brothel though I have kept to the promise. My problem now I have done everything possible to make sure I stop masturbation but I can't just stop it. The highest I can go is a week then return to normal.
It's affecting me especially in my work place. cos during the working days the time I will get to rest I will used it to browse the net (night browsing you understand) using it watch porn movies online without getting a sleep and a enough wanking. This has made me less productive in my work. I wil look so weak and tired and I will b having some dizziness at worked. My co workers have took note of it and my boss too. Though he has not really take action or give me quarries maybe be cos I'm d hard working type and I expect that soonest.
The bigger problem now my dick is always embarrassing me publicly I can't just control it. any time I 'm with the opposite s*x I always having a strong Boner. There is a day i was at home washing my clothes I was all alone in the compound cos everyone left for their various places, suddenly a small girl walked into the compound she should be 14 to 15 years old but she has a very matured physique. She was selling pap (akamu). She walked to me asking of someone living in the compound and as I was answering and I was not having any bad thought in my head oo but found out my dick got erected when I was talking to her. I didn't know oo cos I put on a lit boxer I saw her looking below, for my mind why dis girl dey look ground and I just checked myself I found out my joystick was fully erect. Mehn I couldn't stand the shame and embarrassment I gave to myself that day.
Yesterday something similar happened but wit my neighbour daughter DAT she is in SS1. I was in kitchen cooking oo so she came in to fetch WATER, as she bowed down to get the water her bra got exposed I saw her breast cos she got big breast I couldn't resist myself, I had a strong boner again but this time she didn't notice anything but I had rushed to my room to cool down myself while my food is on fire burning. I just weak and getting a girlfriend has been very difficult for me. The rejections I have had from girls would make someone to commit suicide.